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finally a complete, good day! well........besides the absolutely loserish thing that happened this morn (i effing fell down and grazed my knee when i was running WAHSEH. suay ar. and just when i thought i could proudly tell wanqiu that i shed that loserism i was known for, i had to rediscover this side of myself! darn!!)

in any case, i had great day out, watched "notes on a scandal" with beky and abigail (defnitenitely great company! yay!). loved the show, am totally spellbound man. themes of sweet temptations, unfathomable intensity of friendship (or perhaps, insinuating something else), lies, stubborn denials, and the maliciousness of a human mind, quite encapsulates "notes on a scandal".

loved it. totally loved it. totally morose and disturbing.

and i bought so much accessories! HEH HEH HEH. im such a happy gurl :DDD

badgered by the whole avalanche of projects, assignments and responsibilities. this so-called holidays makes me question the real meaning of holiday. the paradoxes of life is somewhat riveting but at the same time, tiresome to live through.

it just suddenly struck me (when i was brushing my teeth) of this imagery in Julius Caesar, during the conversation between Cassius and Brutus before Brutus did his famous deed: like Colossus towering over us mere earthlings. we are just mere pawns of life - which explains the meaninglessness of certain things that we do.

frivolous everyday conversations with alvyn that cracks me up:

siyu - woohoo pineapple tarts season! says:
whasup?

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

WHATSUP KETCHUP, BEST CHUP AROUND!"

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

HAHAHA

-.-"' then towards then end of the conversation...

siyu - woohoo pineapple tarts season! says:
im going off! toodles!

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

POODLES

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

BAIS BAIS EMO PRINCESS

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

yes

alvyn . CCK TROLLS SUPPER TONIGHT K says:

stabbity stab the emo princess

alvyn........................ you no help already la. haha

the ultimate tactic to get a gurl to go out with you -

he-who-shall-not-be-named* says:

ill get kerpal singh to come too

he-who-shall-not-be-named says:

he'll kick your dog

WAHHAHAH simi sai?!?! *names have been changed because....hmmm of the begrudging victim. haha.

goodbye

goodbye to a wonderful chapter of my life. thank you for being in it the past 3 years. thanks for the memories, be it good or bad. its all in the past now.

hello to a whole new beginning.

woohooo i so wannnnnna dance! vas&pris is like how cool on the dance floor?!?! so much better than hiphop (no offense) - which is like ubiquitous, and the genre's like hackneyed. vote for them! i did :DD

guess i will go learn after i master tennis. but now theres a problem:

dance partner leh?!?!

wahseh, i cant imagine dancing with a guy with 2 left feet la. worse than dancing with octopus. at least, the octopus gives your flabs a good workout. -.-

if not, end up learning exotic dancing LA - its just so hard to imagine looking in the dance studio's mirror with the come-hither look, tousled hair, jiggling my (measly) boobs, shaking my booty (OHBOY this one im damn good at la! HAHAHA) and feeling so hot blooded dancing....

to only go home to face four walls and no testosterone HAHHAA IM KIDDIN LA DEY.

Self-expression Vs. Conformity

its a perennial tug-of-war .

to ceaseless abide by "being true to yourself" will sometimes invite unnecessary trouble. to be true to yourself, is to mirror one's inner most feelings onto the surface. to be true to yourself, is to be open to people. to be true to yourself, is to be judged. to be true to yourself, means absolute vulnerability - to allow others to trample on, to manipulate.

to be true to yourself, is to laugh freely, heartily. to be true to yourself, is to dance ecstatically like a fool to whatever catches your rhythm. to be true to yourself, is to love yourself, for who you are. to be true to yourself, is being spontaneous, living life for the moment. to be true to yourself, means to be self-assured, to be confident.

why is being true to yourself, often met with quiet, punitive judgments?

where is your place then, in this strange little world?

tribulations of a skinny person:

1) being perpetually bombarded by other people's insolent request to "eat more" and maligning questions of "are you...anorexic?"
2) having to endure incessant snide remarks
3) not being able to menstruate regularly
4) flat-chested
5) and as a result of (4), not being able to fit into so many pretty empire tops or even normal clothes
6) a lower immunity system
7) cysts/growth in your breasts
8) bruising easily
9) "ohmygawd, you're so skinny siyu, every time i see you, you seem to be losing weight (yar right, my clothes still fit snugly, cock-eye), do you even eat??!!" -

siyu retorts: YES for goodness sake i eat like a cow, i have 4 stomachs. and YES its only 12midnight and i'm hungrily raiding my fridge for fooOoooOooood. oh and just in case you were wondering, i ate dinner and a hell-lot of it.

and if you are thinking of losing weight desperately, think again. at least, do it healthily. i am skinny, and i cant say i hate my body. but hey, we all have imperfections, i do too. i want to be healthy, i want to wear pretty empire tops with confidence, i want to have boobs, i want people to stop judging, ...

i just want to be normal.