Saturday, August 19, 2006
sometimes..sometimes it only takes a lil bit of empathy. to walk around in that person’s skin. to seek out the whys in his/her actions that irks you so much.
However, all we are often clouded by our impartial judgements, usually formed by past encounters that was not necessarily pleasant. Armed with that confirmation biasness etched in our minds, we seek out to only interpret the worst of what the other party says or does.
I sometimes blame myself for giving in, being the apparent eldest, because I always told myself that the occasional spoon feeding is alright because of our age disparity. I am afterall older, despite speckles of intermittent childish deeds. Of course this is not to deny many of my faults – selfishness, stubbornness, gargantuan materialistic diet, certain pet phrases that causes you to turn peevish. please, it is not that I am unaware. But i have yet to come to terms with it, and am still trying to deal and change them for the better. I really am, but certain old habits die hard. But, so should you – you are just as resistant to constructive advise especially when it is the exact same thing you fault me for, ironically. And it just hurts so bad, when you just turn your back against me and choose to subconsciously fault me for things that you misunderstood me to have done or said. It just hurts to bad.
Please do considered the various things you leave around that I clear for you, in fear that it may be a hazard to someone else or even yourself. the many fun times we had poking fun at stranger’s antics. Our exciting shopping trips. night bolster, towel fights. the occasional subtle deep serious talks that always ends with a lame joke. I don’t think our relationship is so frail that a simple effort of walking in each other’s shoes is so difficult. Its just a basic matter of choice.
And I urge you to put our petty arguments and childishness aside to make things work. i am willing, im just waiting for your reply.
Misunderstood
and dismal.