Thursday, August 31, 2006
im so fucking pissed off.disclaimer: this is not a personal attack towards anyone but i just needed an avenue to rant. however, it is resonant of what is in my subconsious thoughts. pardon the excessive use of explextives.
sometimes a parent can be so FUCKING UNFAIR.
why does the eldest bear so much responsibilities? why are we always expected to give in? why is attention to the eldest the bare minimum? why do u always fucking compare me with ur friend's prim and proper daughter? why do i always get the blame of passing on bad traits (at least in your eyes) to my younger siblings? why do i always get the most shit, least care? why
cant you just let go of your biased judgement of me once in a while? why do you NEVER see that i try so hard to mend broken communications, and change ur opinion of me?
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ?
im so fucking jealous, and im not supposed to show it.
and so, all i demand for you to feed me with material needs (which is the most superficial and basic) and u fuck me upside down for being overtly materialistic.
lastly, i hit my shoulder blade against the metal handle in the batheroom when i nearly slipped.
what a fucked up week/person/day/country. fuck it. whatever.